ɪ ᴅʀɪᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴍʏ ᴡɪɴᴅᴏᴡs ᴏᴘᴇɴ. ᴅʀᴜɴᴋ ᴏn ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴ.
ɪᴛ’s ᴊᴜst ᴀ fɪɢʜᴛ, ɴᴏ ʙᴏᴅʏ’s ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ. ɪ sᴛɪʟʟ fᴇᴇʟ ɪɴsᴀɴᴇ.
One of the many many reasons I became a coach was because of how much pain I’ve been through. I needed strategies and spent my life searching for answers, for practices, for ways to navigate so many things and not miss out on a single second of this life.
I’m just learning the extent of how much pain I’ve been through, really.
The more work I do on myself, the more I find.
That’s what a life without anger will give you.
A life with no boundaries.
No anger = No boundaries.
A life with no boundaries = a life riddled in complex multidimensionally painful relationships and experiences.
The way I handled conflict was to focus on how I could show up with the most kindness, integrity, service, strength.
Sounds pretty, doesn’t it?
Just like my job at the Red Cross + working w/ refugees sounded pretty.
I was being a good little human.
A good little girl.
There’s a price to a life lived like that.
A laundry list of ways people don’t learn to respect or show up for you.
Pain and anger are so important. Yes, they are difficult. But all things worthy are.
Tears- are a way our body releases cortisol (the stress hormone) so you don’t store it in your body.
It has nothing to do with being a sensitive, unmanly, or weak. It’s your body being perfect and doing what it has to do to conserve your resources and unload steam.
So cry sometimes, or all the time- and thank your body for always knowing what to do for you.
When my eyes are poofy like this after I’ve had a good cry- I call them chameleon eyes.
Sometimes I feel like I’m in an altered state after.
Like I’ve taken some psychedelic.
I feel like I’m in an altered state and could sleep as deeply as any wild lion under the moon 🌙
Try and find curiosity for your different altered states.
ｅｓｐｅｃｉａｌｌｙ the ones we've been conditioned to avoid.
Think of them like an elixir/drug/medicine you just drank from a doctor or a medicine woman.
Looking at it like this adds a degree of separation that allows you a birdseye view into it. You will survive this. It's just an opportunity to explore this flavor of your existence.
What's an emotion you could experience differently?
What is the worst that could happen?